It's funny how quickly things can change

This week we inched a little closer to finishing the game by focusing on what tasks need to be completed to get to early access. I’ve talked before about putting off the release which is unfortunate. I need to set a new date and really push hard to get this thing out. The issue is that I have so many things in my life that are pulling me in different directions. I’m doing my best to calm the noise down and focus but the game production has suffered.

Months ago things were a lot more clear. I had a way forward and I felt good about where things were going. It’s interesting how things in life can change so quickly. I’m really caught between the risk vs reward of most of my decision possibilities right now. Do I leave the safety of the military and try to start a second career in the wake of the largest unemployment crisis and uncertainty that the world has seen in recent memory? The answer is probably play it safe and stick around. It feels like I’m not living up to what I had planned. The biggest issue is that it’s not just myself that I have to worry about which adds another level of complexity to everything.

On the plus side I picked up my first Fiverr client this week. I’m teaching him how to use RPG Maker which is a lot of fun and not very stressful at all. I do a little groundwork to prepare and so far he seems happy enough. I should probably add some more skill based operations to see what else I can get going. I’m exploring alternative revenue streams because finding a traditional job looks pretty bad.

A lot of job prospects are asking for additional job training which would cost more money. They seem like poor prospects. It’s frustrating when I’ve taught our military for over 3,000 hours hold a bachelors, and 2 associates degrees and I’m not allowed to simply step into a teaching position. Oh no sir, you see we will need you to do additional training to get a “teaching degree” in our state for that which will cost $5,000. It feels like an unnecessary road block when I’ve proven that I’m more than capable to do that job. I guess I’ll just stick to teaching people on Fiverr to make money now. I can’t help but feel that our grade school, and college educations are getting out played by people online with computers and web cams. There were many times in college when I was directed to YouTube videos, which presented the material that the college had not made.

Job hunting feels so bad that right now it’s time that I can’t afford to spend as it has little chance of reaping a benefit unless the economy turns around. I feel it’s more likely we will see a second lock down in response to increased widespread virus infections.

I even spoke with my parents this week to explore going back home to stay a while and it seems like a poor prospect, and it wouldn’t position me well. I would be kissing my dream of becoming a game developer goodbye. It’s funny how quickly things can change, but it’s important to keep moving forward.